Every now and then, this feeling of absolute melancholy descends upon me and I am unable to shake it off. This week has been one of those week. I could attribute it to the weather but aside from the brief rain we had Monday morning, the rest of the week has been absolutely gorgeous. What I gleaned from my usual spot on the sofa, in any event.
I still feel very weak and this is not helping my outlook on life at the moment. I am depressed and angry. Not sure where to direct this anger but I feel quite resentful of anyone whose health is superior to mine. And that just about covers anyone I know at this point. I feel resentful of those who take a nonchalant attitude toward their health. I have been fighting for my life and I simply find it grossly unfair that others neglect theirs.
It is times like these when I question my faith and get angry at fate and even God. I have suffered enough. And worse, my kids and my husband have suffered enough. This is simply unfair and they deserve better.
Life goes on around me and I feel like everyone and everything is oblivious to my pain. I am so tired of being sick. I want the healthy me back. I want my life back to normal. Please, Lord, give me my life back. That is all I ask.
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