Update

Had a difficult past few days. The relentless nausea and vomiting has left my body weak and virtually unable to walk. I need assistance to take steps anywhere. Rather humbling, and at times downright humiliating. But it is what it is. And something I have to contend with at the present moment. The bone pain is also quite debilitating and unremitting. I'm hoping that the treatment I'm receiving will help the pain soon. I know I just need to be patient. It's difficult to maintain patience when your body is in so much pain and the nausea and vomiting leaves it feeling like you're going to die soon. I have been praying to die again. My mom started crying when I told her I wanted to give up. She begged me to stay strong. For her but especially for my children. I know I need to trust my Heavenly Father who I know will see me through this as He has done countless times in the past. I am indeed lucky to be alive and I ought to celebrate that fact, not bemoan it.